I know I've touched on this before but.....

Okay, before the perverts who read my blog on a consistent basis ( you know who you are people.... C'mon.....) get too excited by the title, I had better explain. I mean "touched on" as in spoke or written about before. That's it. Nothing nefarious. Nothing sexual. No actual touching will be taking place during the construction of this blog..... Well..... Sort of...... Never mind.... I do not have to justify myself to anyone. Anyway, back to the title. I decided to pick up a topic that has been set aside, for the most part, for quite some time. It is the topic of missing someone or something. I mean the kind of missing that wrenches your gut. I mean the type of missing that keeps you awake at night. I mean the type of missing that makes it difficult for you to focus on any one specific task because you are too busy missing someone or something. Not the kind of missing that makes you say, "Gee, I haven't seen or heard from so and so for a while..." Not the kind of missing where you realize after several days that you forgot to do something or say something to someone or with something because you really didn't care. Not the kind of missing where you are in the middle of something else when you realize you MIGHT have forgotten someone or something. The kind of missing in the first three, aforementioned, scenarios is what this blog is about. Plain and simple. REAL missing. I want to pick apart the first three scenarios and relate them to my present frame of mind and then delve into how I deal with it. Cool? Too bad. I'm gonna anyway. Okay, first scenario. Gut wrenching. Not a very appealing description for a human emotion or reaction to a situation but really, what better way to describe how you feel when you are missing someone. Gut wrenching, I have always felt describes the feeling that someone is literally taking a wrench to your gut, getting a good hold and twisting. It is not a pleasant thought or feeling. It is not meant to be. It is about as close as we can come to describing it without going too far and mixing it with stomach turning, which is something completely different. We just miss them and for some reason there is a physical reaction to this missing. Our gut feels wrenched. Plain and simple. It's it and that's that. The next scenario is being kept awake at night. I do feel as though this is quite self explanatory. Every time you close your eyes to sleep, the image of the person or thing you are missing pops in, unannounced. This causes a conscious and, perhaps, unconscious stream of thoughts that illicit emotions and feelings that are far too powerful to overcome thereby keeping our brain active, thereby preventing us from falling asleep. Your brain is an amaZing tool that does so many things but it is a very fickle tool. It needs certain and specific conditions to shut down temporarily (sleep). Too many emotions and thoughts of a person that we are missing creates an unfavorable condition for our brain to sleep. Hence, no sleep when we miss someone at the level that I am referring to in this blog. The last scenario is missing someone or something so much you are unable to focus on any specific task....... What was I talking about......????? Awww shit..... See what I mean????? Well, I have no clue what I was doing. I need to try to get some sleep though..... Have not been able to lately......And my stomach feels like someone has a wrench clamped down on it.....