To Err Is Human....

I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. A LOT. Some of the mistakes have been worse than others. Some of them did not even appear to be mistakes, but they were. No matter what degree they were, or how bad they were, or how small they were, they were mistakes. I am human. Fallible, by design. I could get all biblical on you people and site Chapter and Verse from the Good Book all of the references made to how prone we as humans are to making mistakes. Bad judgements. Doing bad things, in general. It wouldn't do me any good to rehash all of the Verses because y'all know them. Even those of you who are not all that religious. We have heard these sayings and have been exposed to most of them all of our lives. There is some truth in all of them, though. My favorite one is, "To err is human, to forgive is divine." I am not 100% sure where this quote came from and if I was industrious enough at this particular moment, I would try to find is by Googling it or something but I will just say it is an old and wise Proverb. It is a simple statement that means just what it says. To fuck things up is a human quality but to forgive those fuck ups is a Godly thing. It's as close as we can get to "playing God" without getting ourselves in trouble for it. Most of the time, when we try to play God, it is usually not for the right reasons or it is for our own gain. Forgiveness is never wrong and it is not usually for just our own good. Forgiveness is divine. The old Proverb says so. We need to see this for what it is. It is not a blanket "Free Pass" for those around us to do what they want and not expect consequences. It is a way for us to move on from the things that have been perpetuated upon us. It is a way for those who have wronged to reflect on what they have done and realize that it can NEVER happen again if they expect more forgiveness in the future. It is a way for those who have been wronged to purge their souls of hate and hurt that may be lingering. Hate and hurt are not good to have lurking on the inside of the human body. Okay, I just found out who said the quote. It was Alexander Pope. There, I feel better and I am sure y'all do too. Now I don't have to ask for Alexander Pope's forgiveness. But I am asking for anyone who reads this blog, that I have wronged somehow, for your forgiveness. I made a mistake. A huge mistake. A little mistake. Whichever it was and whoever you are. Is this really the way for me to get forgiveness? In some tacky form letter? It is probably not the best way for me to get the forgiveness I need. It is probably not right on so many levels but it is the only way I know to get it out there for all of those who I may have hurt or caused pain to without actually confronting them when they don't want to hear from me. I am at my amends step in AA and I am going to have to confront you people anyway. This is just a way for me to get the blow softened if that is possible. The more I type, the less I feel like this is a good idea. I am going to publish this anyway, but I want you people to know that it is being published with much trepidation. I guess I have to ask for your forgiveness for writing this now, eh?